Now what do I do?

Recently I find myself drawn to someone that I could never have imagine myself with. Even now..

I mean it'd be unfair to say that i can't imagine myself with him, I can actually and surprisingly, I can imagine myself quite happy with him. But really? would that be me?

certainly not the rebellious and crazy me that everyone is used to seeing. perhaps that would be good no? perhaps its time to grow up. and perhaps that i am finally attracted to what could only be called a nice decent guy is a sign that i am growing up. but it still haunts me... wouldn't i still hook up with the bad boy down the street if i had the chance? the truth is i would.  so easily i admit to my own promiscuity..what does that make me?